Okay So like I warned in my very first blog. Here is one of my blogs that I am going to vent...
So for those of you who don't know my Egg Donor and I have been fighting on and off since 2006. Let me take you guys back so you totally understand where I'm coming from. Growing up with my mother was difficult. Being the middle child yet the oldest girl I had a lot of responsibility put upon me. Now back to 2006. That's the year my parents got divorced. My mother was always in the casinos gambling, she would gamble away vehicle payments, insurance payments, you name it she was spending the bill money to keep the lights on at the casinos. So when she would lose all that who did she come running to? Graham and I. So of course because she was our mother and we cared we would give her the money to cover the bills because she just blew it all.. In August of 2006 that's when my dad asked her for a divorce after 25 years of marriage. And in all honesty I don't know how he stuck it out with her that long. So in the middle of packing and finding someplace else to live, my mother was too busy out blowing what little money she had, then once that was gone she would borrow off my brother and I. So after my parents divorce was finalized I decided so that I could keep in contact with my mother I would add her to my cell plan. WHAT A HUGE MISTAKE! Well Britney and I moved to Slc, and my mother and Graham moved down to Vegas to live with her then boyfriend. Well Britney and I decided to go down to Vegas to visit. Well while I was down in Vegas I really wanted to move there to be closer to them. Well all seemed to be going well till right before Thanksgiving. Low and behold her boyfriend kicked us out knowing we had no place to go. So while in Vegas my mother gambled away what money we had to get us all to Slc, Utah. And we became homeless. Sleeping in our cars, going without eating for a week, brushing our teeth in a nasty public bathroom. Well because my worthless mother has screwed everyone else over nobody was willing to help us. Well I finally it took me getting over my pride and asking for help. If it wasn't for Wayne & Courtney, we would have never made it to Mesquite, Nv. Well in the mix of being homeless in Vegas to moving to Mesquite, my mother met some guy on Myspace whom lived in Africa. Well she racked up a cell phone bill of $800.00 calling Africa. Well this was the start of when we first started to fall apart. So now with my phone getting shut off, the bill went to 1300.00+. To this day she still owes me for the phone bill she racked up, and lord knows I'll never see the money. Well we've been on and off. Well now it's June 2009 and I hadn't had any contact with her for almost a year. Then out of the blue she calls my phone to let me know that my Uncle Richard had passed away. I was already stressed to the max, I had 6 weeks till my wedding and I had nothing planned or put together! So She asked me if I needed any help, well dumb fuck me lets her back in. But I told her that this was her last chance, she stabs me in the back or does anything I don't like she is gone for good. So now it's the most important day of my life, my Wedding Day. Everything so I thought was going good. My wedding turn out amazing, My mother made sure she was in every picture. Now I sit here today wishing I would have never let her back in. I can't take that day back, I wish I would have stood my ground and tell her that she was not welcome. So now I have all the wedding photos that I want to burn because she is in all of them. But I can't burn them because they are my wedding photos. I'm constantly telling Shawn I'm sorry that she was there. I wish I could take it back. Now Shawn and I are in our own place and she is constantly around trying to be a mother, when in fact I don't want her around. But every kept telling me Tiff that's your mother. I listened to her talk shit on my brother, my sister, my husband and my father. I finally had it. Well now here we are within the last 6-7 months I've cut off all communication with her. Before I cut her out completely I load her 40 dollars for food, and she told me she would pay me back 50 when her new husband got paid. Okay not a big deal. Well his payday rolls around and she calls me trying to avoid paying me she said they screwed up on Robs check and she wanted to know if I could wait another 2 weeks. Well I finally stood my ground and told her no. Well she got real shitty with me and hung up. Well she came by to pay me then she left. Heading to Slc to buy another vehicle. But they screwed up on his check. Well she told everyone that if I asked they didn't see her in Slc, like it was a big secret. She was ignoring my calls and text so that pissed me off even more. So once I finally talked to her she said a lot of hurtful words to me that made my decision of cutting her out of my life a no brainer. She had the nerve to say to me, I have no goals in life, I'll never amount to anything, I don't deserve to have kids, I wouldn't make a good mother, And having me was a mistake. Excuse me bitch?? Where does she get off telling me I wouldn't make a good mother? She was never around I raised her fucking kids. And I'm a mistake? Well if I'm a mistake kick fucking rocks bitch. You don't need to know whats going on with me or my family. Well now Graham isn't talking to her, she called him a disappointment. And said that she should have aborted all of us. I don't know where she gets off. Now shes trying to pull a pitty party with everyone, saying that we are Ungrateful Brats just totally bashing us. So at this point I gave my sister the ultimatum of either me or our mother. Only because I know how my mother works. Well Britney chose me. So now today she is going around to my sisters friends wife spreading lies, saying that Britney slept with him, and that he's wanting to leave his wife for Brit. Just all around stirring the pot. All I have to say is that this Bitch who calls herself a MOTHER has a lot of fucking nerve. She's screwed up our lifes growing up, She isn't going to do it anymore. She better watch herself because now she is barking up the wrong tree. I'm tired of her hurting us. I'm tired of seeing the hurt in my families eyes because our Egg Donor is a cunt. She thinks she has done right by us when in fact she failed!
Ugh, I am so mad right now. My mother has caused me a lot of problems. A lot of them have come from growing up and the shit she put me through. Anybody who knows me knows how deep my hurt and anger goes. But I'm determined to be 1,000,000 times better then she ever was and has been. I've got all I need in my life now. Amazing friends, family, nieces, nephews.
Well before I go on and on all night I'm going to end this for now. I'll write more tomorrow.
